Get Fuzzy and Robert Frost

A quote from my most favourite recent Get Fuzzy

A Kitty Litter-ary Moment with Bucky B. Katt

Whose toads are these I think I knew
His frogs are in the viscous stew;
He will not see me stooping here
To launch his toads to frog fondue.

The little puss would think it queer
To stop with no frogs to toss near
Between the toads and froggy fling
The farthest frog tossed o'er the pier

He gives the slimy newts a swing
As if they are some green plaything...
The only other sound's the cheep
Of peepers pinned and sent flying.
The toads are best found sound asleep
But I have prodigious frogs to reap.
Reptiles to throw before I sleep.
Reptiles to throw before I sleep.

-Darby Conley (as Bucky Katt), Get Fuzzy, December 19, 2004.

Thinkingses

Just thinking and being thankful. I am still frustrated about money, but, it could be worse. Things were somewhat put in perspective for me today. The lady who processes all my room charges and gives me cash back hasn't been to work yet this week. I have nearly $100 backed up owing to me. I would be frustrated... OK, I am a little... except that she has it much worse than I do. So what if I can't buy everything I thought I would? She was sick and then lost a close friend in a car accident last night.

So, I come to the conclusion that I am blessed. I have a good husband, good family, and cute kitties! I have wonderful church, a nice home, and great friends. I have baking supplies (soon to be turned into something yummy!), and home-made Irish cream (that's right - you heard me!). I have a Christmas "tree", decorations, and a brand new wreath from my mom and dad (and early Christmas present). I have a dirty car that works and some gas in the tank. I will make it to work. I will travel to Vernon to see my family on Christmas.

Life is good.

Despair!

My credit is rapidly going down the drain! My faith is waning right now. I owe so much money to so many people. I pay so little rent and it still isn't enough. I am having trouble feeling positive. We don't have money for Christmas presents, we really don't. We don't even have money to buy stuff to make Christmas crafts! It is depressing. I would be thrilled if $10 000 suddenly dropped from the sky. It would be gone, but I would be thrilled.

I don't know what to do. My few months with little work and few tips have been hard. Not to mention the under-abundance of student loans. So nice of the government to remove the tuition freeze and not increase student loan funding. I want to cry. I hate this.

I got a letter from the MSP collections division today. I sent in my application for premium assistance but they take up to 3 months to process. In the mean time, I owe them $672 (I am still trying to find a way around that).

I am finding it hard to have faith that God will take care of it right now. I know he takes care of lots of little things in little ways. Right now it isn't enough. I don't understand. We have all sorts of crazy stories about how He has taken care of us. What is it this time? Is it me? (Rhetorical question, by the way. Just in case someone has something trite to say about tithing).

*SIGH*. We will be OK. Tomorrow is a new day of praying for tips!

I'd say I'm sorry for complaining... but I'm really not. This is my blog and my feelings. Perfectly Christian or not, it is how I really feel.

I think my biggest fear right now is that someone is going to give me advice.

Christmas specials

Here's an excerpt from one of my favourites. I'm sure you will all recognize this:

You’re a mean one Mr. Grinch
You really are a heel.
You're as cuddly as a cactus,
And as charming as an eel,
Mr. Grinch!
You're a bad banana,
With a greasy black peel!

_________________________
You're a monster, Mr. Grinch!
Your heart's an empty hole.
Your brain is full of spiders.
You've got garlic in your soul,
Mr. Grinch!
I wouldn't touch you
With a thirty-nine-and-a-half foot pole!

_____________________________
You're a vile one, Mr. Grinch!
You have termites in your smile.
You have all the tender sweetness
Of a seasick crocodile,
Mr. Grinch!
Given the choice between the two of you,
I'd take the seasick crocodile!

______________________________
You're a foul one, Mr. Grinch!
You're a nasty, wasty skunk!
Your heart is full of unwashed socks.
Your soul is full of gunk,
Mr. Grinch!
The three words that best describe you
Are as follows, and I quote,
" Stink, stank, stunk!"

_________________________
You're a rotter, Mr. Grinch!
You're the king of sinful sots!
Your heart's a dead tomato,
Splotched with moldy, purple spots,
Mr. Grinch!
Your soul is an apalling dump-heap,
Overflowing with the most disgraceful
assortment of deplorable rubbish imaginable,
Mangled-up in tangled-up knots!

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You nauseate me, Mr. Grinch!
With a nauseous super naus!
You're a crooked jerky jockey,
And you drive a crooked horse,
Mr. Grinch!
You're a three-decker sauerkraut
and toadstool sandwich,
With arsenic sauce!

-Dr. Seuss

God, prayer etc....

    Thank God for "small" miracles! Our landlord told us to knock $75 off the January rent. We are poor. This is good news!
    Had a funny experience on Sunday. We decided to put up our Christmas lights. We borrowed a ladder from a friend from our former church. I had seen a few people from the church that week to have coffee, drop off baby gifts etc. He said that our name had come up and they had been praying for us. I immediately felt defenive.
    What the heck is wrong with me? It's prayer! Would I prefer that they didn't pray for me? I guess my first reaction when it comes from that church is that they only pray if they think there is somethig wrong with me. That is such a wrong attitude! First of all, I don't know if that's why. Second of all, WHO CARES? It's prayer! at least they love me enough to pray. And I need it... I HAVE NO MONEY!!!! Why should I care where prayer comes from?
    Maybe it's that I got in contact with so many people I haven't seen all in one week. I can see how that might seem weird. Cause "concern". LOL. I don't even know if it's concern! I will take it as love and leave it there. Thank-you God that you care enough to move people to pray for me!

Sorry if this is dark for some of you... (don't worry, it's not about me!)

For better or for worse
For horror and for curse
For being washed as black as sin
For bruising more than just her skin
I'm trying not to hate you.

James 2

I was discussing a line in a song with my friend Connie (yes, I am still listening obsessively to U2). I don't know if this is what it means, but it is a fun parallel, don't you think?

You speak of signs and wonders
But I need something other
I would believe if I were able
But I'm waiting on the crumbs from your table

-Bono, Crumbs From Your Table

And...

Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed," but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it?

-James 2:15-16, NIV

Isaiah 30

      Oh, how I love the book of Isaiah. Oh, how I love God!
      If you read may Day 3 post on The Ritalin Diaries, you will note that I was stressing out and questioning things, because I felt crappy on day 3 of trying this out. Yesterday, aside from taking my drugs, I was over-tired, overworked, unable to go to church (because I had to work) and I had a headache. So, I started questioning if this drug was really going to help me.
      I went to bed early and awoke feeling much better today.
      I have been trying to read one Proverb a day as a devotion. When I had read it over twice, it had taken up about 7 mins of my life. So, I decided to pick up Brad's book on listening prayer (note to self, I enjoyed reading, wasn't feeling anxious like I needed to hurry up and read).
      I was reading the chapter on the importance of scripture in hearing God. He mentioned a verse in Isaiah 30. This is one of my favourite chapters! I had written an exegetical paper on this chapter, but had forgotten the verse he mentioned(about the "voice that tells you 'turn to the left' or 'turn to the right...'"). But then I skipped to one of my favourite verses - the one my paper had focused on:

In repentance and rest is your salvation, In quietness and trust is your peace.

      That verse had been the crux of my paper! I think God was reminding me why I love Him and love the Bible.
      So, essentially, God is telling me to relax and lean on him, whatever the outcome will be. If I am ADD, then I know and can deal with it. If I'm not, then I know and can deal with it. Either way, I will know for sure!

      P.S. - it is a really awesome passage. If anyone is interested, I still have the paper (all 10 pages of it!).

Chocolate cake

This is on the Ritalin Diaries as well.

Ritalin is supposed to be an appetite suppressant. Well, after work yesterday I was SO hungry that I had a giant piece of Delta chocolate cake. Seriously, the best chocolate cake I have ever had. Homemade with Grand Marnier Sauce and raspberry coulis. YUM!!! Then, later that night I had pachos! Except I shared them and I did feel full. But still... that's not much of a low calorie day. I figure if I'm gonna take this, there have to be some 'good' side-effects.

Let me explain

OK - so that last post was a little vague. We are exploring ADD right now and trying to determine whether or not I have it. I have started a blog to journal my reactions to Ritalin. If you click on the title of the previous blog it will take you there. Don't feel like you have to read it. It is likely going to be long. It's mostly for me.

R-Day

ADD. Ritalin. Click on the title for a link.